Will this be missed?

Bangkok, 16th May 2023

Its 01.14 am now, lot of things need to do tomorrow.

I did so many things too today, but why I cant sleep peacefully when I need a rest.

So many things happen, want to enjoy this moment till suddenly it just come.

Some random words that construct good question for me, not sure for someone else will also be good enough or not. 

"will this be missed?"

Have you asked that question? I just did.

What is "this" refer to? Every possibility that can be, 

this moment, will it be missed?

This place, will you be misses the place that you are at right now?

Or this feeling that you keep inside your heart. 

This mind, this soul? 

Every this in your life, will be these that will donate memories.

Those memories will build you, to be what you will be.

I think every this will shape you to be different, from before. 

Ntah itu jadi baik atau buruk.

Just remember that you are loved.

Even by yourself its still love right? Or maybe your secret admirer.

ps: you must hear song by mocca with the title is secret admirer. 

It is so good and calming.

The picture is the view from my room's window. I stay at 17th floor

I think thats all that I want to read today. 

Just wasting my time that I dont know what to do because I cant sleep. Love you