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Halo, Ini Indah di tanggal 29 Juni 2019 00:22

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Halo, ini Indah di tanggal 29 Juni 2019

mungkin nanti catatan ini akan dibaca diri saya sendiri ketika berumur lebih tua,
cuman mau bilang, kamu pernah mengalami masa dimana bingung terhadap hati kamu sendiri,
tidak mau memaksakan tapi kamu menginginkannya,
agak sedikit egois? memang, tapi kamu seharusnya sudah cukup dewasa untuk mengontrol perasaan.
atau emang sedikit aneh dengan melakukan hal bodoh?

Mungkin memang pemikiran kamu agak berbeda dengan orang pada umumnya,
dan mungkin memang sedikit unik atau? sedikit tidak normal? hmm
yang bisa menilai hanya orang lain.
Ketika seseorang sedang jatuh cinta, mereka memang bisa gila.
dan ketika cintanya tidak terbalas? kata sebuah penulis novel " hanya waktu yang bisa menjawab"

Waktu, berbaik hatilah kepadaku,
karena dicuekin disaat dewasa itu enggak enak.
dicuekin saat sudah mengerti banyak hal itu menyedihkan.
tapi jika aku bisa bertahan? akankah berbuah kebahagiaan?
jika iya, aku rela menahan rasa sakit wkwkwk
gaya banget.

To someone,

Sometimes I want you to be me, feeling this sadness when someone you love ignore you.
Sometimes I want to forget this feelings, That I still love you till now
No one can change your place in my heart,
But why you cant do the same?
Only me in your heart? Its just my dream when Im sleeping
I pray someday both of us will get the best from Allah.
will we be together or not,
I hope you always be happy and sorry if I always bothering your life :(


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The distence

When did we meet? Never
When did we know each other? Im not sure but I think 1 or 2 years ago.
But I feel that we are a good friend now.
You are too far away in other country and Im here.
I can accompany you do your activities and discuss everything about us, about our mindset, about daily problem etc.
It just a dream for me which I thought a lot for several days
It never happen till now,
But you said that we will meet someday.
Didnt you?
Did you know? When you said that, It so hurt me hehehe.
Cause I will be so hurting when it wont be reality.
I will do the best and study hard to learn be fluent in english.
Although Im not sure with my skills if I can raise my dream to be fluent speaking english :)
I should kill all my special feelings to you.
Im afraid it will kill me back someday if I dont kill them now,
Im afraid if I will be hurting so much again.
I dont want to be sad, stressful, and frustated because of someone anymore.
There are lots usefull things to do than b3 frustated with a relationship.
Am I wrong? Maybe not.
It was nice to know you, but I should stop my self curious about your life.
I will try to be a normal friend with you.
Stop thinking about you or if I can, I wont enter your life again :)
June, 19th 2018
-MSM-