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Halo, ini Indah di tanggal 29 Juni 2019

mungkin nanti catatan ini akan dibaca diri saya sendiri ketika berumur lebih tua,
cuman mau bilang, kamu pernah mengalami masa dimana bingung terhadap hati kamu sendiri,
tidak mau memaksakan tapi kamu menginginkannya,
agak sedikit egois? memang, tapi kamu seharusnya sudah cukup dewasa untuk mengontrol perasaan.
atau emang sedikit aneh dengan melakukan hal bodoh?

Mungkin memang pemikiran kamu agak berbeda dengan orang pada umumnya,
dan mungkin memang sedikit unik atau? sedikit tidak normal? hmm
yang bisa menilai hanya orang lain.
Ketika seseorang sedang jatuh cinta, mereka memang bisa gila.
dan ketika cintanya tidak terbalas? kata sebuah penulis novel " hanya waktu yang bisa menjawab"

Waktu, berbaik hatilah kepadaku,
karena dicuekin disaat dewasa itu enggak enak.
dicuekin saat sudah mengerti banyak hal itu menyedihkan.
tapi jika aku bisa bertahan? akankah berbuah kebahagiaan?
jika iya, aku rela menahan rasa sakit wkwkwk
gaya banget.

To someone,

Sometimes I want you to be me, feeling this sadness when someone you love ignore you.
Sometimes I want to forget this feelings, That I still love you till now
No one can change your place in my heart,
But why you cant do the same?
Only me in your heart? Its just my dream when Im sleeping
I pray someday both of us will get the best from Allah.
will we be together or not,
I hope you always be happy and sorry if I always bothering your life :(


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The distence

When did we meet? Never
When did we know each other? Im not sure but I think 1 or 2 years ago.
But I feel that we are a good friend now.

You are too far away in other country and Im here.
I can accompany you do your activities and discuss everything about us, about our mindset, about daily problem etc.
It just a dream for me which I thought a lot for several days

It never happen till now,
But you said that we will meet someday.
Didnt you?
Did you know? When you said that, It so hurt me hehehe.
Cause I will be so hurting when it wont be reality.
I will do the best and study hard to learn be fluent in english.
Although Im not sure with my skills if I can raise my dream to be fluent speaking english :)

I should kill all my special feelings to you.
Im afraid it will kill me back someday if I dont kill them now,
Im afraid if I will be hurting so much again.
I dont want to be sad, stressful, and frustated because of someone anymore.
There are lots usefull things to do than b3 frustated with a relationship.
Am I wrong? Maybe not.

It was nice to know you, but I should stop my self curious about your life.
I will try to be a normal friend with you.
Stop thinking about you or if I can, I wont enter your life again :)

June, 19th 2018

-MSM-

22 Februari 2019

Setelah lelah dan agak kurang enak badan,
Berjam jam kena macet,
Semua rasa itu hilang ketika bertemu org yg kita sayang.

Emak ❤

I want to love you with all my heart before I love someone who will take a whole of my life 😁

Trip to malaysia part 1

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By : Indah Puji Lestari

The journey is never ending. There's always gonna be growth, improvement, adversity; you just gotta take it all in and do what's right, continue to grow, continue to live in the moment. -Antonio Brown
This is my 6th day in malaysia. It was my first time come to this country. I felt so excited before because I will meet my old friends who I know in a short program. That program is an international colaboration between my university, airlangga university from indonesia and Universiti Teknologi Mara malaysia. So I will tell you several experiences here. Hope you will enjoy it .

I went to malaysia by plane on sunday, January 27th 2019. It was holiday not only for us but also uitm student. So it will be best chance to spend holiday abroad. Cause I missed them so much since we separated after short program at airlangga university, my campus. I missed the momen when we laughed together, doing presentation and etc. They were so nice, friendly, cheerful, nd very kind.

We came to juanda airport before entering the plane. We choosed malaysia airlines as a transportation due to its cheap price than others. To be honest we already choosed another company but sadly the ticket sold out. And we have some benefit using malaysia airlines such as meals, free baggage till 20kg.
It was my first time go abroad so I felt a little bit nervous inside the plane. Well it was also my first time to go somewhere by plane.

I heard an airplane passing overhead. I wished I was on it. -Charles Bukowski
Do you want to know How I feel inside the plane when the plane is flying in the bad weather? It was a great feeling. I just put my trust on Allah that everything will be will be. It s the best for me. Because Allah is the best planner for us (I red that from internet  hahaha, if Allah is the best planner). I wasn't afraid, although my friend frightened me so many times. The reason why I wasnt afraid bacuse all of my friend still alive who have experience boarding plane even if in a bad weather and the cloud so dark in the evening, so do I. Why not? I will be okay. Thats the point hahaha.

“There’s not a word yet for old friends who’ve just met.”
-Jim Henson
I arrived at malaysia airport at 6.15 pm at indonesia meridian time , 7.15 pm in malaysia meridian time. Indonesia and malaysia have 1 hour different time. I was tired. Suddenly after did some checking at imigration post and took my bag, eventually met some uitm student near exit door. At the first several minutes I didnt recognize them, but they called my name then I was surprised. They still remember my name so well. It make me speechless and also happy. Then we go to a local restaurant for dinner by bus. I like tomyam, it taste very very very delicious hahaha

 I collect memories. I look for opportunities to try new things, go to new places, and meet new people all the time.-Marcel Wanders
We stay at uitm sereban campus dorm when we are on malaysia. The dorm is better than my campus. It was bigger and have complete stuff such as table, big cupboard with mirror inside, bed, wastefal and two bathrooms. The dorm is quiet because the campus activity is off. Sometimes I met new student, talk to them and play basket ball at night. Here they can play sport till mid night which is it very hard to do in our campus. Because we should do a lot of document permission to do night activities.

I love making new friends and I respect people for a lot of different reasons.-Taylor Swift
1st day we were welcomed by the headmistress of chemistry and enviremental bachelor, some lectures, and students. We were doing some informal ceremony and playing games. The games was so fun, we were divided in 5 groups, making cheers and presenting the cheers to all. From that day I got some new friends. There were many student that I didnt know before cause they didnt join the program in my campus. So my uitm friend list is added. Im happy of it . To be continue....

How to say Sorry? By middle school with little changing

Don't know why I said the things I said to you
Caught up in the moment, I was ignorant
I thought I had to make you see things from my side
Laying down my pride, I need to tell you how much I need you now
You were right
Let me change your mind
I can't believe it
Don't leave me hanging
Can you hear what I am saying?

If I could go back in time again I would
Be better and gentle and different, I would
If I could make you believe again I would
I would take back all the things I said, I would
How would you want it? how do I say it?
How do I let you know that I'm sorry
How would you want it? how do I say it
How do I let you know

Lately, I've been tossing, turning every night
Thinking that if I should call you up
but then I remembered that you told me that you needed being alone
With every day that passes,
And I realise how much

I need you now